Ahh...the joys of life. Friends and Partners and Life and Love. This has been a week of all those things. It's been a week where I've been over-saturated with that warm glow of new love and I've been soaking up every fuzzy, oozy, blingy drop of it. It's one of those intense new loves like I haven't experienced in a long time. The kind of love that has you laying on the couch, daydreaming of upcoming evenings together cuddling on a couch, future Christmases together burning the ten pound turkey and spending an hour with the yellow pages trying to find a pizza joint that's open...laughing all the while. The kind of cheesy, 14-year-old-girl love that has you e-mailing every sappy song you have in your music collection to that person. I love this feeling. It makes every shitty occurance in my life feel like paper fodder, seem completely devoid of any pain or hurt. It makes everything feel perfect.
Mind you, the ability to read a novel without repeatedly losing my concentration is lost on me. And to go a half-hour without that goofy shit grin on my face is....well it's just not happening. But I'm ok with that. And those sappy love songs I've been bombarding this guy with have been on repeat for days (thank you john mayer...you're fucking brilliant). Everyone....Mark has an announcement....ahem....I'M IN LOVE!
And it's the best birthday gift I could have ever hoped for. Yes... the big three one is quickly approaching. Not to mention my Best-Friend Shaun's 28th which is....well...it's now considering it's 1:33 in the morning and he turned 28 an hour and thirty three minutes ago. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAUNNIE! Gonna be a low key birthday this year considering everyone is broke and Sean (yes, that's the fabulous guys name) is still in England. But low key or not, I couldn't be more thrilled. Unlike last years festivities which was the prequil to a midlife crisis and far too many months on an explosive party streak, this year I'm grounded in the fact that I'm now in my thirties....I'm actually enjoying being a bit older...a bit wiser...a bit more experienced (get your minds out of the gutter people!).
I'm feeling self-assured and positive and happy....I have marvelous friends and have been rediscovering some old chums and enjoying the little moments.
I even began patching things up with an old partner. It's still in the beginning stages but after a few years of bruised egos and hurt feeling on both ends I think we're both ready to admit that maybe how we ended it was wrong on both our sides. And it's nice to feel a little better about things with him. Yay...Mark's starting to feel adult and civil and happy.
After a bit of a crazy Pride weekend which was just an endless flow of beer and a complete lack of sleep, I'm ready for the summer. Sean gets in town in 17 sleeps (which is how we've come to count it down). The ground rules which we've laid for ourselves is a bit different from anything I've done before but it's a bit more intense than anything I've felt before as well so I'm happy to try this new experience (not to mention rock-climbing, kayaking, and yoga....man is fit as a bull...not to mention handsome to boot).
I wish you all a wonderful week. To all my family (legally or not) I miss you all back home and hope to speak with you real soon. To all my friends, thank you all so much for sticking with me through the rough times, the crazy times and the new re-emergence times. I promise I'm finding my footing again and I couldn't have done it without you. And to everyone else, thanks for stopping by to read up on the experiences which are my life. There are many more to come.
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